Maybe it just wasn't right in the first place. I tried my best with the attempt of a relationship. It started off as occasionally seeing each other, it was enough in the beginning. I hoped in vain I guess that he would want more and not expect me to do all the compromising. I even tried to tell myself that yes I could keep it as just see him occasionally and not have a more 'normal' type of a relationship, because I wanted him that much.
But compromise works both ways, it was no use me compromising on all that I wanted and he not budging.
I guess he just didn't want it or me enough to make any compromises. Hard lesson to learn but learn I will from this.
Back to the drawing board I guess, or should I say its time to dive headlong into the murky depths of dating again.....
Where or how I will meet men, I don't know, I don't know where to begin again. There has got to be a better way to meet eligible, decent, well adjusted men.... no no I will not let bitterness creep in and wonder if a decent well adjusted male is an urban myth....
Deep down I will wonder what he is doing and if I could ever be friends again with him because we once were, and wonder if he will think of me and regret that he did let me go.
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