So I recently got 3 books to read, not fiction, but 2 are like psycho analytical books on figuring things out about oneself.
There is a lot going on in my mind and I need to learn to move on and discover how my past is inhibiting my present.
I wouldn’t call it a self help book, its more of a what the fuck did I do to become like this, or as some would like to call them “self awareness books”
The book explores how our childhood defines who we are as adults. Its heavy going but there have been a few ah ha moments already…
Its helping me see things about addiction and depression. I am a sugar addict. If there is a chocolate in the fridge, it has to be eaten.. no such thing as leaving it for tomorrow nonsense. Its not a joke anymore, especially when I can go through a whole bar of chocolate in one sitting.
All of my siblings have an addiction, alcohol or some other substance. My father was an alcoholic. Its only my mother that doesn’t have an addiction, so I wanted to explore if addiction was nature or nurture.
Seems there is only so much we can blame our genes for and everything on how we were brought up.
Depression has been in the news quite a bit lately and I know I suffer some depression. It has made me think that its only the menopause but I know deep down that I have always had this darker side where I withdraw from everyone, hence the fact that I cant have a relationship...
So lets see if the book will give me some insight and clues on why I am the way I am..